Tough

I think I am going crazy. At the moment I'm finding time when I feel so low and upset. A part of me wonders if I am use focusing on the thing that upset me to make myself even more upset and dramatic. I know things are not right but don't know how to deal with them. Last week I got a text from Vic asking if I was busy on the 18th August. I don't expect her to realise the significance of the date but it make me upset that I will probably the only one who knows and cares.
I keep thinking about what should be happening at the moment. I'm dreading it. I can't talk to John, I don't want to upset him.